at the zoo

yes i know this entry is so very long overdue,
but well at least it serves as a memory of javier's hair 8 days before the barber chopped it all -
7th Dec 2006.
which also happens to be our very special day. (:
taking me to the zoo was another one of jj's very clever tricks (he has many, all the better).
and those who know me (well enough) can easily comprehend why that is so.
i love ALL the animals in the zoo! (primate kingdom not included)
and thus that wasnt part of our route, unless we had to bypass it to go somewhere cool like cat city, where i would close my eyes and try not to listen to their evil woo-ah-ah calls.
i'm too lazy to rant on about the entire day because that would take far too much memory recalling energy and blogspace.
THEREFOR, i'll let the pictures do the talking for me.
http://pic-tur-esque.blogspot.com

oh but one thing i find really interesting, is that you can find these little buggers in our very own Singapore Zoo. totally g-r-o-s-s.

my dictionary

hate [heyt] - verb
to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest ~ i hate that jav has to be in the army and i'll only get to see him on weekends.

miss [mis] - verb
to regret the absence or loss of (boyfriend who had to go) ~ I miss jav oh-so-dreadfully.

desire [di-zahyr] –verb or noun
1. to wish or long for (boyfriend who cannot be around because he is in tekong); crave; want.
2. to express a wish to obtain; ask for; request ~ I desire javier's heavenly comforting presense.
3. a craving, for something that brings enjoyment and happiness (whose absence is accompanied by melancholy and sadness which results in obsessive blogging about subject).

miserable [miz-er-uh-buh] -adjective
1. wretchedly unhappy or uncomfortable ~ i am so miserable without him.
2. accompanied by great discomfort or distress ~ a miserable wait of 2 years.
3. dreadfully inadequate ~ a miserable amount of talk-time allowed from javier.

THIS SUCKS, OH YEAH IT DOES.

anticipate

christmas is gone, paving way for the new year
(and of course the day i turn eighteen as well)

waiting for you to come home to me darling.

like fluffy slippers

Greeting cards have all been sent

The Christmas rush is through

But I still have one more wish to make

A special one for you.

Merry Christmas Darling,

We're apart and that's true

But I can dream and in my dreams,

I'm Christmas-ing with you.

A day and a half more.

Had our little jepenga christmas party today. And it was a splendid little party i must say. It was simple, and cosy, and most importantly - loving. God did a good job, making all 7 of us so different yet piecing us together like a pretty jigsaw puzzle that fit so snug that it wont ever fall apart. (: hear that natalie dearest?

we dont leave our friends behind.

confessions

1. If people had to go to prison for spending WAY out of budget, i should start packing.
2. i bought a pair of stilettos one size too small.
3. i stole 10 bucks from my dad
4. i want to buy another pair of shoes out of pure greed and vanity
5. i have not gone for compulsory pre-christmas confession

and many more which i cant think of right now.
I am so guilty.

so, sue me.

Decorations of red
on a green Christmas tree
Won't mean a thing if
you're not here with me.

rawrr.

she's so fab.

met mel today and shopped with her.
she is really the most gracious and generous person ever
and i am lucky and glad to have her as one of my friends.
i really do appreciate her. (mel are you reading this)
i am not one for mush, but she is really a loyal pal.
though at times she may be fierce and slightly unreasonable,
but i know that in whatever she does,
she puts the best interests of the people she loves before her own.
and i respect her for that.
Ready? ok! M-E-L-I-S-S-A!!!!!

we bought a dress and altered it but i can only go collect next friday.
but i should count my blessings. thank you mellios.
and it was nice hanging with mel's pals yunhua and ivan. (:
all in all, it was a well spent day.
and i got to talk to jj for 15 min which is better than nothing.
his hair is gone and i cant wait to see it.
i miss him so much i keep playing out the possible scenarios of our next meeting in my head.
ha ha. classic.
the slow-mo run towards each other with our arms wide open preparing for the longest embrace of our lives.

yeah, right.

the green men came to take him and they marched away.
them fckrs.

there he goes.

visited the tekong resort today to send jj off.
the journey where boys become MEN (apparently so on the saf booklet)
but i must say he was quite a lucky lad - having the company of 5 ladies.
beginning with the one who wields the most power:
grandmother, mother, aunt, sister and girlfriend.
there was a lot of fussing about but he got many kisses too when we had to part.
i bet more than any other guy who was there today. (:
it was all really quite the sugarsweet.
his family is really one tight unit, i've never seen anything like it.
except in seventh heaven, but less cheesy.
j's family members are really nice and good people, and i half wish my family's like that.
i'm too lazy to describe laboriously what i saw there, cos thats not the important bit.
javier, the star, was stolen from us girls when we reached the island and we all sulked for a bit before we were all dragged along for the tour.
honestly i was more interested in spending more time with my boyfriend but oh well.
anyhowm, the tour wasnt as bad as i expected.
i wasnt left out because like i mentioned, his grandma-mum-aunt-sis are really cool and have my kinda sense of humour.
when we finally got to see him again we were all smiles!
spent our last hour or so with the superstar and then had to do one of the hardest things -
saying goodbye.
but of course that hour consisted of more fussing about and phototaking and kisses.
then when the time came, we said our goodbyes, to him and his hair. -pout.
i shall just have to take comfort in the thought that he's coming back on christmas. yayness.
but only for 24 hours. no yay. but i cant wait.
until then, nine smses a night will have to do.

i would love to blog about mambo night the other day but this post is getting hideously long.
so zip zip here it is: MAMBO NIGHT MEL JAV & FRIENDS LOVEDIT.
and of course the 7th of december when he asked.
but i'll save that for another day when my sis is done uploading the pics.

yong xian jie javier

the man and love of my life.

i will miss you,
the way you're always late cos you have to wax yr hair,
how you can hold me in yr arms and the world doesnt seem so evil anymore,
your funny milky smell,
your stubby toes,
your signature ever so funky dance moves,
your dimple (of course),
your dashing smile,
your almost non-existent eyes and the way they can still warm me up inside,
your hair (and i know you'll miss them too),
you dressing up and not knowing what to wear (you wont have to fuss about it soon),
most of all your company,
the corny jokes and cheesy lines,
and how you can always make me laugh.

oh jav, what would i be without you?
just another gobshite i suppose.
you make this gobshite look good sweetheart.

and what would i do without you?
be a gobshite.
who will i call in the wee hours of the morning when i awake from a bad dream?
who will make me sad yet stop at nothing to make me happy?
who will take my hand and tell me its okay when other gobshites make me sad?
oh dear, i'm scaring myself.
somehow 9 smses a night doesnt seem enough.

its definitely not enough.

i've known you like what 5 years?
and we didnt just 'know' each other, it was a bond we shared with no one else
which will remain ever so special.
we've seen each other through everything,
family trauma, relationship issues (between ourselves and with other people),
we've fallen in love and fallen out of love so on and so forth,
but beneath all that, what really held us together was that something special i cannot describe.
and i can say that it is more than love that we share.

yeah i know its only 3 goddamn weeks what the heck
but i will miss you.
and i want you to know that.
only because i havent been showing it
and i know you do wonder from time to time whether i feel the same way as you.
i feel it j, i do.
i'm just not really the kind for sweet nothings and candyflavoured superfluousness.
but for you i'm gonna say:
I HEART YOU. (:

a happy bunch, thats what we are.

YESSS. i have managed to resize tocks damned 1.4mb photos.
since she is sunning herself at the kelong
i'll do the honours of uploading these.
http://pic-tur-esque.blogspot.com
oh how the beach beckons.

hun: oh where oh where has my papa gone? i miss you so. anyhow, i hope you're not becoming a stick on a diet of greens. love and condolences from this sunny and better smelling environment without vegetarian constraints.

mel: when are you coming back my long lost girl? do tell asap. the red carpet awaits!

on a more solemn note, a random thought, an excerpt from the book i'm reading, the other side of the story by Marian Keyes.
"Little by little my vision darkened until all i saw was the bloodiness of human beings and our woeful flaws. We ruin everything we touch. What is so wrong with us that we rush into situations to which we are manifestly unsuited, which will hurt us and hurt others? Why are we given emotions which we cannot control and which move in exact contradiction to what we really want? We are walking conflicts, internal battles on legs and if human beings were cars, we would return them for being faulty. Why do we have such a finite capacity for pleasure but an infinte one for pain? We're a cosmic joke, i decided. A cosmic experiment which had gone wrong."

linger

today was book worm club day.
and down to the beach tomorrow.
i so love my friends.
hun, you're missing out man yO!

hey ya'll, when hun comes back we'll have board games day again yeah?
onz or notz?
muackzz, kekexx.
with love always, jan.

i just want to live like this forever,
in a world where we'll never grow old
and never part.

EYECANDY

Name: Fredrik Ljungberg
Born: April 16, 1977
Vittsjo, Sweden
Position: Attacking Midfielder for Arsenal FC
Squad Number: 8
also a CK model
and my eyecandy.

Girls, he's mine. Rowrr.

ladies, eat your heart out.

THE VICTORIA'S SECRET RUNWAY MODELS.


































everyone pick your favourite.
i left heidi out cos i couldnt find good shots of her doing the victoria's secret runway shows.
besides i don't really like her face.

I LOVE GISELE BUNDCHEN.
it's just something about her.
adriana and alessandra are HOT HOT HOT
but gisele, ooh fire.

and victoria's secret lingerie, perfect.
oh gimme some.

things that last

watched love actually with the girls the other day at pam's place.

though it lasted probably only a few hours,
i had a pretty cosy and comforting time.

as always, we all cooed at the very well known scene where the guy tells keira knightly that she's perfect.
(oh, how very sweet)
and we had pizza while we talked about everything and anything.

and of course i cannot forget magic and his antics some may find quite adorable.
one grumpy white ball of fur who can behanve quite coquettishly to get some pizza.
but to me (the animal lover), pam's cat is a pretty thing.

too bad carolyn wasnt there though, she wouldve spiced up the gathering abit.
or should i say her drama would even if she doesnt. ha.

and nat, i do miss her.
i deamt of her last night actually.
that she came back and popped out of nowhere, yeah i do miss her.
i want to shout out to her: WHERE THE EFFING HELL ARE YOU BABE?
and i wish she'd reply from wherever she is: I'M FCKING HERE YOU BIATCH!
but i know that its an impossibility, a dream that will remain a wish in my sleep.



JEPENGA is missing one of its Es, darling.
and i am missing you, pretty Natalie Kow.

i wish you love.

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop lovin' you

I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me.

i want to hold your hand.

my idea of a bad pickup line

Hey, are those moon pants you're wearing?

Cause your ass is out of this world!

the men dont get it.

He's so cute isnt he? His eyes, his hair, his personality. Yeah, but most things end and its better to know how in advance. Here, love warnings from the stars!

ARIES
The Good: He's a chauvinist, which turns you on because until recently you were dating a guy who drank flavoured coffee.
The Bad: Wait until he starts asking you where his dinner is.
The Ending: Babe, you're the best, but he's got room for a lot more notches on his belt.

TAURUS
The Good: He's smart, shy, a secret pervert.
The Bad: He'll make you miserable if your relationship doesn't go the way he wants.
The Ending: Mixed signals-- he'll leave you, come back, leave you, come back. When you've finally got enough, expect to do all the dirty work.

GEMINI
The Good: He likes to chew the rag even more than your best friend.
The Bad: All this talk never goes anywhere.
The Ending: He's such a flake, he'll probably forget to deliver an "it's over" speech.

CANCER
The Good: Sensitive, sex-obsessed, the perfect scam.
The Bad: He's completely anal and ridiculously insecure.
The Ending: If you dump him, he'll obsess about you forever. If you dont, expect to be smothered to death.

LEO
The Good: He acts like he's already famous.
The Bad: He treats you like just another fan.
The Ending: Imagine trying to get your way with madonna-- a consummate Leo-- but add a penis to the mix.

VIRGO
The Good: He's preppy, self-deprecating and practical.
The Bad: Therapy five times a week would only scratch the surface.
The Ending: He's defensive, so he goes on the offensive. Be prepared for a tongue lashing [and no, not the good kind].

LIBRA
The Good: Isn't he adorable? Thoughtful, Kind, soft-spoken...
The Bad:... which is only a ruse to hide how insanely jugemental he is.
The Ending: A dissertation on exactly what you've dont wrong, what you've both done wrong, that will make you want to kill yourself.

SCORPIO
The Good: He's charismatic and holds back enough to keep you interested.
The Bad: Hello, psycho! Scorpio's temper is from hell!
The Ending: Encourage him to express his anger via email, then cancel your hotmail account, change your phone number and move far, far away.

SAGITTARIUS
The Good: All the other girls want him, but he chooses you.
The Bad: That's what you think-- he cheats.
The Ending: Don't expect him to go through a mourning period-- he'll have someone else lined up way before the door hits you in the rear.

CAPRICORN
The Good: He's a suit-and-tie guy-- self-possessed, intelligent, goal oriented.
The Bad: He thinks doggie style is risque and is looking for a throphy wife.
The Ending: Unless you live up to his expectations, you'll get the old heave-ho in a public place or via fax.

AQUARIUS
The Good: Supercool hippie vibe where you love the one you're with.
The Bad: He's a hypocrite who has big ideas about how people should behave that he doesn't apply to himself.
The Ending: If you don't have a lot in common, run for your life.

PISCES
The Good: Sweet, dreamy, full of compliments.
The Bad: Basically asks every girl he goes out with, "Are you my mommy?"
The Ending: You'll never have your heart eaten out by anyone nicer. Expect the best of table manners.

such a doll

PROM NIGHT: an excuse to dress up and be narcissistic.

knee length oriental print cheongsam: $90
alteration: $25
pointed black heels: my own
earrings: jav's sister's
hair stylist: stella and myself
makeup artist: me
manicurist: stel and tab
bag: no bag. (credit to hwee for keeping my stuff for me)
snapshots: PRICELESS. (almost like everything else)

:)

i'll always remember.

I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble

We never could have come this far

I took the good times, I'll take the bad times

I'll take you just the way you are.

I said I love you, and that's forever

And this I promise from the heart

I could not love you any better

I love you just the way you are.